20 3 / 2013
too different. not from the same worlds. whatever we have in common doesn’t even matter. we smile, we laugh, we enjoy, but that is it. there is nothing deeper, nothing meaningful. and those things cannot be forced, they just happen. time makes everything work, but will this be one of those things that stays incomplete. i have other worries, other issues, and this is what i am thinking about. because i do care about you and i wish things were just easier. nothing will change, we will always be the same way we are now, but that does not mean there isn’t a chance. damn hope ruins everything. without hope we have nothing to stress about. the only thing stronger than fear is hope,
15 2 / 2013
nothing is right. nothing is wrong. i just want to get out of high school. the people. the work. ib. the judgement. the people. i know there will be people like that everywhere in the world. but is it too much for me to ask to just start over? can i just not be a total failure and disappointment to my family? can i be someone they can look at and go yup, that is my successful amazing daughter. she is perfect…even though i am not even close. nothing even matters anymore, i wont make it to Emory if i don’t try hard now and even if i try hard, there is a good chance i wont get in because of the mistakes i have made before…i cant change the damn past, but i can try to make a better future. but how…what hasn’t been done before…can that be done now? can i get a great SAT score, can i get all As, can i be good at it all, can i be beautiful, can i have the perfect body, can i meet the perfect indian guy, can i have the perfect friends, can i have a perfect job which i love and get a great salary for, can i have the perfect life… is that too much to ask for? perfection…yeah it probably is. only perfect people get perfection and i am the farthest thing form perfect…not perfect, not even close. i am just a simple, indian girl who is trying to make a place in this world. i have high ambitions and the only way i can achieve them is by pushing past my flaws right now…but how…how does this mundane desi girl do this…guess we will have to wait to find out…
25 12 / 2012
Ladies, this has been a Sidharth Malhotra appreciation post/photoset
Kukkad kamal da ;)
(Source: tapishh)
25 12 / 2012
Whose that whose that guy He something very special I don’t know what I like He’s really got me going He makes me feel alright Baby baby, he can get lucky tonight ♥
- Kukkad kamaal da!
